nothing going right

or left. just down. I cant seem to win a frakin hand right now. Is is variance? Is it playing wrong? maybe. But I seem to be dominated WAY too much. AQ vs. KQ. or AJo flops TP but gets reraised. I call to see KJs and thus a flush draw vs TPTK. But an errand king on the river kills me, not even the flush.

It all started when I broke my code and decided to play a MMTT (mega mtt). for me that's anything over 6 tables. This was 750 players. I was so card dead, that I folded over 90% of the hands, and at level 4 had yet to see a pair or better than A9o. I finally threw all my chips in (in disgust) when I notice the avg chips stack was already at 5k and I had 1k left. I had QJ. The blinds turns over AK. The flop is AKx.

I must have called some kind of curse out. I am at a bit of a loss. I can even blow a chip lead now, being sloppy with my chips. I am not in the zone and need to find my parking space again.